Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
4 August 2022
SS
01:21
Sleepy Stones
hey, i was curious about something, and i hope i'm not intruding to ask, but i'm curious about that language that you and i've noticed some others speak
01:21
i think i recall you stating it's some sorta language from another realm? that's really cool, i'd love to learn about it, if that's something you're at all comfortable sharing
IΘ
01:22
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Yea
01:22
Although it's not easy to teach in this realm without any rune on your soul
SS
01:23
Sleepy Stones
i'm pretty good at learning languages, if i can muster up the continued effort over time to actually study them
IΘ
01:24
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Of fair
01:24
And usually it's taught through magic
SS
01:24
Sleepy Stones
interesting
01:25
i mean i operate under the assumption that all cognitive processes are inherently magical, but i might have a biased viewpoint
IΘ
01:26
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair enough
01:27
Sorry if I sound constantly exhausted as this human realm drags on me as a demonic elder goddess of time and balance which you know this realm lacks
01:28
And I'm also powerless to fix this realm which doesn't help to be forced to watch
SS
01:30
Sleepy Stones
it drags on me too
01:32
you know, my system boasts a vast headspace, it's like, non euclidian and shit, hidden nooks and crannies, down into the dirt and up into the sky longer than it is around, but i can't get there, i'm trapped in my own body
IΘ
01:34
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I'm bound to this vessel but can partially leave
01:34
But it's either me do things in this realm or
01:34
Relax the vessel and partially leave
SS
01:35
Sleepy Stones
when you talked about being sealed into your body, i would think of how my headmates snagged an "opprotunity" when i was splitting, to shape my experiences and thoughts in those critical moments so that i would be stuck in this body, and so that i would have the type of personality they thought it would be helpful for the system to have
01:36
they had practiced by making tulpas, it was premeditated
01:36
or uh, wait, is there a better term for tulpas, i heard that was an improperly culturally appropriated term
IΘ
01:36
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Im mainly waiting for freedom but I also recently discovered while becoming demon that I had a envy for demons
SS
01:37
Sleepy Stones
true, i just meant as to distinct split on purpose through deliberate mental rituals vs involuntarily in the heat of the moment of a trauma response
01:38
at least in our system, these two types of headmates actually operate pretty significantly differently
IΘ
01:38
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
01:39
Currently the other in this vessel is getting themselves fixed up as they are of clockwork
SS
01:40
Sleepy Stones
sounds complicated, i'm sorry you have to deal with that
IΘ
01:40
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Not really
SS
01:41
Sleepy Stones
i really need a good repair session
IΘ
01:42
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I could see if you could sense me and I could fix parts of you up and recharge your energy if you like
SS
01:42
Sleepy Stones
that's tempting, but i think i'm actually currently more in the process of snaking things out so to speak
01:43
i don't want to sound gross but, it's kinda like trying to pull stuff out of a clogged drain
IΘ
01:43
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
SS
01:43
Sleepy Stones
only the clogged drain is like, my brain, i guess?
IΘ
01:43
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
If you ever need anything I'm here
SS
01:43
Sleepy Stones
thank you, you are very kind
IΘ
01:43
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
No problem
01:44
It's really barely much
01:45
Anything you want to tell me?
SS
01:46
Sleepy Stones
i could think of many things, but perhaps nothing for this moment in particular
01:47
i was kinda tempted to start venting and traumadumping (more than i already have) but i realized it was kinda weird since this is our first one on one interaction
01:47
thank you for being so kind and supportive thogh
IΘ
01:47
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
It's fine
01:48
Here because of this realm I have trauma based misanthropy
SS
01:48
Sleepy Stones
me too, but i reserve the misanthropy for people like teachers
IΘ
01:49
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Rr?
SS
01:49
Sleepy Stones
lots and lots of trauma from teachers
01:50
some real heinous shit, some of it i totally blanked for like 15 years until a couple months ago, well, some headmates of mine already had it, but they were caught in a sort of perpetual flashback with no connection to the headspace and no other hedmates aware
01:50
so yeah, i guess i hate teachers now?
IΘ
01:51
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
01:52
Here it's humans not understanding my situation and only looking at the vessel and not me and thinking I'm the vessel when I'm not and refusing to understand
SS
01:52
Sleepy Stones
is Rr a word in that language you speak? or an abbreviation?
01:52
i like it, it's cool
IΘ
SS
01:53
Sleepy Stones
yeah, it kinda sounds like how i would try to basically say iw as asking a question if i was nonberval
IΘ
01:55
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
If it was in hazkara it would be transcribed as hodishka irdo?
SS
01:56
Sleepy Stones
Interesting
01:58
That sounds pretty long, is Rr a common shortened equivalent, akin to how English speakers use "huh?"
IΘ
01:58
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Also vc?
As Vessel needs to relax
As Vessel needs to relax
SS
02:02
Sleepy Stones
sorry, i don't know if i can talk right now, i mean i probably *can* but when things get into trauma topics, or just if i've been triggered recently, i kinda start talking, umm, weird
IΘ
02:02
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Of fair
SS
02:03
Sleepy Stones
i don't wanna make you uncomfortable, i just get really fawny and start sounding like a kid
IΘ
02:03
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I don't mind kiddo
SS
02:03
Sleepy Stones
it actually kinda scares me, like what if it happens when i'm around someone i can't trust
IΘ
02:04
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair enough
02:04
SS
02:04
Sleepy Stones
uh, i mean, you might mind it with me, cause it's not like i'm "just" acting like a kid, but specifically an extremely traumatized kid, with a very specific type of trauma that tends to make people very uncomfortable
02:05
and it really shows and colors the way i start to think and act
02:05
i don't think i'm like that right now but i could slip very easy
02:05
anyways, go relax, i'm fine, i think, and i know some other people who are online anyways
IΘ
02:05
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Breathe
SS
02:05
Sleepy Stones
thank you
IΘ
02:06
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I sensed such so I'm reminding you
SS
02:06
Sleepy Stones
i actually just took some allergy meds because i was so congested
IΘ
.webp)
SS
02:07
Sleepy Stones
i've done a lot of meticulous looking up of interactions and discovered that with otc allegy meds and painkillers, you can make some truly high grade cominations without any adverse interactions
02:07
ooh, cute stickers
02:07
the other one was cool too
IΘ
02:08
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Can I forward a rant when appropriate
SS
02:08
Sleepy Stones
sure
IΘ
02:08
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Obviously first you need to calm first
SS
02:08
Sleepy Stones
okii
IΘ
02:08
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Which will take a while I sense
SS
02:08
Sleepy Stones
i'm gonna find a relaxing game i think, and maybe turn the lights
02:09
either that or i'm gonna take a bath
02:09
not sure
IΘ
02:09
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
SS
02:09
Sleepy Stones
bath is probably the better idea actually
IΘ
02:09
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Want a hug?
SS
02:09
Sleepy Stones
sure
IΘ
02:09
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
SS
02:10
Sleepy Stones
you know my girlfriend gives the best internet hug, she's psychic, and i can actually like, feel it when she sends a roleplay hug over text
02:10
i don't care if it's just placebo, it feels so nice
IΘ
02:10
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Felt that?
SS
02:10
Sleepy Stones
and she always asks permission
IΘ
02:10
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I usually actually visit
SS
02:10
Sleepy Stones
it's more of a blanket than a hug but it's still really nice
IΘ
02:10
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Infact I'm levitating behind ya
02:11
SS
02:12
Sleepy Stones
can you see my hair
IΘ
02:12
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Kinda blurry
02:12
But yes
SS
02:13
Sleepy Stones
i'm working out a truly frightful knot with my fingers, it's like the size of a ping pong ball
02:14
i need to do this in the bath
IΘ
02:14
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I can lightly see but geez
SS
02:14
Sleepy Stones
though i have a problem with the bath, which is also why i have this knot in my hair
02:14
see i had a long repressed trauma relating to water
IΘ
02:15
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Need a calming or high spell or anything?
SS
02:15
Sleepy Stones
and now it's un-repressed and i am unprepared and i can not find any way to clean myself that doesn't cause extreme panic
IΘ
02:15
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
SS
02:15
Sleepy Stones
i'm already pretty high
IΘ
02:15
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
And seems it's embedded in the vessel itself
02:15
For the trauma
SS
02:16
Sleepy Stones
what do you mean?
02:16
hehe
IΘ
02:16
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
In reply to this message
Traumas tend to embead themselves in the vessels and this is another case of such
SS
02:16
Sleepy Stones
oh, yeah
02:17
our vessels physical health and fitness sharply declined after each major trauma event
IΘ
02:18
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Definitely
02:19
I would lay around the area of yours but it's a mess
SS
02:19
Sleepy Stones
Thankfully the water has to hit my face for panic to set in
02:19
So I think I can bathe
02:19
It is, I apologize
02:19
I actually sleep in a different room
IΘ
02:19
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
^^;
02:19
Yea
02:20
Also anubis recently made me a new temple to get me used to being demon
SS
02:20
Sleepy Stones
Sounds very generous of him
IΘ
02:20
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
They are also a old aquantance
02:21
A occasional annoyance on occasion
02:21
.webp)
SS
02:21
Sleepy Stones
Our system has a very strange relationship with dieties
IΘ
02:22
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
02:22
Also I'll need to fix up a few realms time glitching
02:23
I'll do it later or have one of my angels fix it
SS
02:24
Sleepy Stones
For one thing, I may or may not have been baptized without my parents knowledge, I have no way of knowing, the person who would have done it has too much dementia to tell me, and might have lied anyways
02:24
Fucking catholics
IΘ
02:25
Also why do I sense a litteral rotting soul in your vessel
02:27
.webp)
SS
02:28
Sleepy Stones
Oh yeah, more than one actually
IΘ
02:29
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I take it multiple souls have died
SS
02:29
Sleepy Stones
It's complicated
IΘ
02:29
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair enough
02:30
Vessel needs rest
SS
02:30
Sleepy Stones
The way we understand it, headmates at least in our system aren't really capable of dying without the body dying
IΘ
02:31
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
That's fair
02:31
I'd reply but it wouldn't be of this human language
SS
02:31
Sleepy Stones
They can be turned into different headmates, but if they attempt suicide in the headspace, and leave a corpse, it means they're probably just dormant, and could awaken under the right circumstances, presumably when they recieve whatever the right signal is to feel safe again
02:32
Though they can also reawaken but still be rotting zombies
IΘ
SS
02:32
Sleepy Stones
Feel free to
02:33
Also if you plan to observe me with astral projection as I bathe, that's fine, but inform me that you will, so I can adjust my behavior accordingly
IΘ
02:33
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Dashkananashkashta tati'k'ka nashkatishto
02:34
I completely leave only partially leaving by the bind
SS
02:34
Sleepy Stones
Huh?
IΘ
02:35
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
It's not something I'm apt enough in this human language to explain
SS
02:36
Sleepy Stones
That's OK
IΘ
02:37
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
But I do need to rest the vessel
SS
02:37
Sleepy Stones
Have a good rest
02:37
And if you are sleeping, have pleasant dreams
02:37
I probably won't :^]
IΘ
02:38
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
All I ask is one to do self care
SS
02:38
Sleepy Stones
I am currently soaking in the bath
02:38
I should have brought food
IΘ
02:39
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
.webp)
02:39
Night kiddo
SS
02:39
Sleepy Stones
Night
IΘ
02:39
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
🖤
SS
02:40
Sleepy Stones
💖🐽💖
IΘ
12:57
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
SS
21:56
Sleepy Stones
In reply to this message
gosh this sticker is so cool, i love how it explodes into a bunch of hearts, very entertaining
19 August 2022
SS
22:57
Sleepy Stones
Hey, inara, can I talk to you about something regarding moderation of your group?
IΘ
22:58
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Yes
SS
23:02
Sleepy Stones
So, this message is a copy pasta intended to trip Chinese internet filters, booting anyone accessing telegram from China out of the chat
SS
23:02
Sleepy Stones
SA
Snowdrift Aether🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️ 19.08.2022 00:48:14
动态网自由门 天安門 天安门 法輪功 李洪志 Free Tibet 六四天安門事件 The Tiananmen Square protests of 1989 天安門大屠殺 The Tiananmen Square Massacre 反右派鬥爭 The Anti-Rightist Struggle 大躍進政策 The Great Leap Forward 文化大革命 The Great Proletarian Cultural Revolution 人權 Human Rights 民運 Democratization 自由 Freedom 獨立 Independence 多黨制 Multi-party system 台灣 臺灣 Taiwan Formosa 中華民國 Republic of China 西藏 土伯特 唐古特 Tibet 達賴喇嘛 Dalai Lama 法輪功 Falun Dafa 新疆維吾爾自治區 The Xinjiang Uyghur Autonomous Region 諾貝爾和平獎 Nobel Peace Prize 劉暁波 Liu Xiaobo 民主 言論 思想 反共 反革命 抗議 運動 騷亂 暴亂 騷擾 擾亂 抗暴 平反 維權 示威游行 李洪志 法輪大法 大法弟子 強制斷種 強制堕胎 民族淨化 人體實驗 肅清 胡耀邦 趙紫陽 魏京生 王丹 還政於民 和平演變 激流中國 北京之春 大紀元時報 九評論共産黨 獨裁 專制 壓制 統一 監視 鎮壓 迫害 侵略 掠奪 破壞 拷問 屠殺 活摘器官 誘拐 買賣人口 遊進 走私 毒品 賣淫 春畫 賭博 六合彩 天安門 天安门 法輪功 李洪志 Winnie the Pooh 劉曉波动态网自由门
SS
23:02
Sleepy Stones
SA
Snowdrift Aether🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️ 19.08.2022 00:48:47
Real quick test
23:02
SA
Snowdrift Aether🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️ 19.08.2022 00:49:48
Interesting how suddenly it dropped from 60 online to 50 online
SS
23:03
Sleepy Stones
And these two messages directly after show that this was done intentionally, and not in ignorance
IΘ
23:04
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I didn't see in any groups
SS
23:04
Sleepy Stones
Oh, it was in your LGBT server
IΘ
23:04
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Seems to be removed
23:04
SS
23:05
Sleepy Stones
Hmm, I still see it
23:05
You'd probably have to scroll pretty far up, it was posted like 10 hours ago
23:06
I just found it by searching "Square" in the chat
23:06
She posted the same thing in a chat I mod, and I just figured you'd want to know, since it seems like a pretty racist thing to do
IΘ
23:08
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
20 August 2022
IΘ
22:19
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
SS
22:19
Sleepy Stones
heya
22:19
what's up
30 September 2022
SS
07:16
Sleepy Stones
hey can i talk to u about jazzy? don't worry, I'm not gonna ask that she be unbanned or something like that
IΘ
07:16
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
sure
SS
07:19
Sleepy Stones
so she has a bit of this psychosis thing going on that makes her spew authcom rhetoric while totally ignoring context, even if that context makes her look monstrous, she does it when she's having like a spiraling psychotic state, and obviously this is something you can't actually politically debate her out of because it's not actually politics, it's psychology, but it appears to be politics and so people react in reasonable ways to the things she's saying and that riles her up more until she starts a spiral that gets her kicked out or pushes someone away
07:19
and basically what I'm getting at is that this is all elaborate self harm
07:21
and part of that is like, saying things on the internet that could get her and people around her incriminated, and so i would like to ask that like, with purging her messages from chat, that you just extend it back a bit further to also cover where shes talking about all that deliberately self incriminating shit
IΘ
07:21
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
it also causes others harm
SS
07:23
Sleepy Stones
I'm aware of that
07:24
i mean it causes me harm, to an extent, as I'm affiliated with her and if she gets heat from feds, that probably carries over to me
07:24
now I'm not doing any crimes but that sounds unpleasant and dangerous all the same
07:25
plus having to see her in pain like that wounds me, she makes me cry some times
07:26
and a few times it's made me so fucking mad, like probably was actually triggering me and pressing on trauma shit, before i really realized that it was impossible to argue against
IΘ
07:30
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair and as a demonic elder goddess and a admin it's my duty to keep things in line
07:32
Side note vessels vision is blurring in and out
SS
07:32
Sleepy Stones
oh dear, that could be concerning
07:33
i mean if you're tired, or if you've taken drugs or alcohol, it's not that out of line, and otherwise, you could just be suffering from eye exhaustion, but if it keeps going, it could be a sign of something severe
IΘ
07:34
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Vessels tired
SS
07:34
Sleepy Stones
ah yeah
07:34
us too
IΘ
07:34
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Also what irritates me is when those see the vessel as me when it's not
SS
07:34
Sleepy Stones
or, well, our vessel kinda hit a second wind as we were preparing for bed, so now we're in bed and the body is full of energy
07:35
does your vessel also hit second winds like that
IΘ
07:35
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
It's unknown
SS
IΘ
07:37
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
SS
07:38
Sleepy Stones
i am gonna be so tired later
07:38
have to wake up in under 7 hours for therapy, and then go to the pharmacy right after for vaccines
07:39
by the time i get home I'm probably just gonna flop back in bed
14 October 2022
IΘ
23:50
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Could use company
SS
23:50
Sleepy Stones
yeah?
23:51
just wanna shoot the shit or do u have an emotional problem u need help with
IΘ
23:52
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Define the first one
SS
23:53
Sleepy Stones
like, talk about frivolous topics just for the enjoyment of talking about shit
23:53
also called shooting the breeze
15 October 2022
IΘ
00:22
Although if open vc may be best as it's hard to do tesx through vessel ing
SS
00:39
Sleepy Stones
aaa
00:39
i'm a lil spooked
00:39
smoke detectors just went off
00:39
false alarm
IΘ
00:39
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Of sorry
SS
00:39
Sleepy Stones
those things are so loud i think they might actually impede me from escaping a fire more than they'd help
IΘ
00:41
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
SS
00:49
Sleepy Stones
idk if i can voice callll, but uh, you can send me voice messages, and then i can send ones to u, if that works
IΘ
00:50
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Sure
27 October 2022
SS
23:49
Sleepy Stones
i'm curious about that word you added to the blocked list from your language, is it a slur of some kind, or just a particularly severe regular insult?
IΘ
23:50
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Very severe insult
SS
23:50
Sleepy Stones
mostly i ask because my brain kinda latched onto it as like "now hey, that sounds like an insult that might get close to severe enough for some of my abusers, nothing in english quite cuts it" but then i wasn't sure if that would be like, ok to actually say
28 October 2022
IΘ
01:02
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I'm going to do something to discharge a bit
SS
01:02
Sleepy Stones
please don't do anything permanent to your vessel
IΘ
01:03
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I sense Vessels fear and I'll stab and dig into wood then take a break from the vessel
SS
01:03
Sleepy Stones
oh nice
01:04
that sounds fun
IΘ
01:04
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I am harming the vessel though through stealing energy from it however
SS
01:05
Sleepy Stones
hmm, i mean, that's just kinda the nature of existing in a body
01:05
every living creature on earth steals energy from it's body
5 November 2022
SS
01:44
Sleepy Stones
Heya, how's it hanging
01:45
you may have just gone to sleep, oops
7 November 2022
IΘ
07:15
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
.webp)
SS
07:16
Sleepy Stones
i dissociate so much lately that i don't really feel lucid for what seems like most of the time
10 November 2022
IΘ
04:12
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I am basically using a spell that causes a feedback loop causing lust and energy to build and drain the one viewing but it cuts off once at a certain level so it's not dangerous for the one viewing it I basically added you to a opt out list that it has
04:13
SS
04:14
Sleepy Stones
ahh yeah, that sounds fun
IΘ
04:14
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I made the channel to regulate myself as I get used to being succubus
SS
04:14
Sleepy Stones
the trouble is i have my own spells going whenever i get horny, and there was just a bit of dissonance between them
04:14
not dangerous, but unpleasant
IΘ
04:15
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Yea
SS
04:15
i'm kinda like a....
04:15
what's the fae version of a succubus?
IΘ
04:15
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
In reply to this message
This does cause addiction but at the same period not too dangerous of one
SS
04:16
Sleepy Stones
hmmmm
04:17
i remember you saying you can teach that language with a spell of sorts
04:17
but uh
IΘ
04:17
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I did also have envy for demons and dysphoria when I was elder goddess and not demonic elder goddess
SS
04:17
Sleepy Stones
well i'm interested but i'm also naturally suspicious of unfamiliar magic
IΘ
04:18
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
In reply to this message
I could dump knowledge into you related to what it does if you don't mind
SS
04:18
Sleepy Stones
hmmmmm
04:18
instead of dumping directly could you put it into some sort of like
04:18
package
04:18
that i can analyze before taking it in
IΘ
04:18
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
It's basically a scribe rune with some seals that block everything except the hazkara part of it
SS
04:19
Sleepy Stones
is a scribe rune like, a universal translator of sorts?
IΘ
04:21
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
In reply to this message
Not quite it's like having all knowledge of languages outside this realm except some that decended into this realm before the vale fell the hazkara version is just very sealed version of it
SS
04:21
Sleepy Stones
oooooh
04:21
delightful
04:21
and if you've already sent that package and i'm not just going crazy
04:22
i'm really liking what i'm seeing
04:22
but i need a bit of prep to modify the stuff i have running already to make it compatible
IΘ
04:22
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
It does have a side effect though if you get annoyed by lack of knowledge it will drive you nuts with lack of Grammer and other things
04:22
Of beings around you
SS
04:23
Sleepy Stones
otherwise i miiiiiiight forget english, lol
IΘ
04:23
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I can use a cleanup rune
04:23
That adjusts things
SS
04:24
Sleepy Stones
i suppose i gave it more of a partial glance, like you might do with a TOS
IΘ
SS
04:24
Sleepy Stones
i need to eat something to give a closer look
IΘ
04:25
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I can give a small part of my energy which is massive for you
SS
04:25
Sleepy Stones
hmmmm, sure, i'm interested how that will feel
IΘ
04:25
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
04:25
Here
04:26
Sorry for that slight overload
SS
04:26
Sleepy Stones
lol
IΘ
04:26
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
SS
04:26
Sleepy Stones
hey, it's cheaper than energy drinks :D
IΘ
04:27
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Now take a full look
04:30
Also once the rune melts away as you see it'll also turn you into a scribe knowledge wise although as a part of you
SS
04:30
Sleepy Stones
ok i think i'm done looking through it
04:31
sounds all fine and fun
04:31
and i had my servitors alter my own spells as i read through it so i think i'm already ready
04:31
i probably should actually eat though
IΘ
04:32
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
There's a barrier still up that needs to be disabled first
SS
04:32
Sleepy Stones
direct magic energy dumps are fun and great, but i can't imagine they contain vitamins and minerals
04:32
ohhhhhh
04:32
hmmmmmmmmm
04:32
if it's the one i'm thinking of
04:32
that might beeee
04:32
difficult
IΘ
04:32
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
It's a very low level rune
SS
04:32
Sleepy Stones
you might have to do it while we're asleep
04:32
yeah but it's like
04:32
compulsive
IΘ
04:32
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
In reply to this message
I can easily tear through it although I sense someone may not like it
SS
04:33
Sleepy Stones
yeah it's kind of like a
04:33
sensitive subject
IΘ
04:33
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I could put a similar one up once done
SS
04:34
Sleepy Stones
basically it's the spell inscribed into our host alter while they split off to keep them as a permanently front stuck shell-alter
04:35
and so she maintains it herself compulsively, almost akin to like, well, the way she compares it is that it's "kinda like clenching your butthole when you're not in the bathroom" in that when she gets close to leaving the front, she tenses up on it to an extreme degree out of reflex
IΘ
04:35
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
04:36
All I'll need is permission
SS
04:36
Sleepy Stones
ok so
04:36
realtalk here
04:36
when i did this to the host i definitely didn't have permission
04:37
and i definitely wouldn't be able to put it back under my own power
04:37
and i feel like you probably wouldn't put it back without her permission
04:37
which puts me in kind of a double bind
IΘ
04:37
Although my spells do tend to be more powerful
SS
04:37
Sleepy Stones
like ethically i should probably undo it without permission anyways
04:38
like
04:38
as in
04:38
fuck
IΘ
04:38
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
04:39
And if I don't you would get into trouble
04:39
I sense
SS
04:40
Sleepy Stones
the main thing is complete switches can cause total amnesia and that can put us in risky scenarios which mean more trauma i end up having to deal with, i've joked a few times about "getting really into geoguessr just in case i go into a fugue state and wake up on the other side of the world" but like, without that spell that might theoretically actually ahppen
IΘ
04:40
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
SS
04:40
Sleepy Stones
and so while i definitely did a pretty opprotunistically unethical thing to inscribe it
04:41
and therfore probably wouldn't get permission to do it again
04:41
i also
04:41
really really don't want it undone
IΘ
04:42
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
A bypass without removing it would require my temporal abilities as the demonic elder goddess of time and balance
SS
04:42
Sleepy Stones
i mean i the host want it undone
04:42
idk maybe the one you were talking to makes good points but
04:43
i just really really hate being frontstuck
IΘ
04:43
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
04:44
Working best sanario is to take down the wall and to put a rune on you that slowly eases you out
SS
04:44
Sleepy Stones
ah
04:44
yeah that sounds
04:44
a lot less drastic
04:45
to be honest being in the headspace can be a bit scary
04:45
so while i want to escape the front it would be nice to be slowly eased out
04:45
and it would also give us time to develop coping mechanisms for full switches
IΘ
04:46
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I'll have the rune ease you out over a earth month
SS
04:46
Sleepy Stones
ok
04:46
we agree
04:47
we actually put it to a vote and it was unanimous :o
IΘ
04:47
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I could also modify the vessel to have less amnesia
SS
04:47
Sleepy Stones
that's pretty crazy, last thing we agreed on unanimously was who to vote for
04:50
did you apply the rune yet?
04:50
it feels nice
04:50
kinda warm
IΘ
04:50
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Not yet
SS
04:50
Sleepy Stones
oh huh
04:50
i guess it just got a bit warmer in our room, lol
04:51
heater probably started running
IΘ
04:51
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Although a time clone is working on preping things
SS
04:51
Sleepy Stones
oh, hmm, possibly the prep then
IΘ
04:52
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Coming over
04:52
You may drop out of front for split second
04:52
May feel like a minute however
SS
04:52
Sleepy Stones
so, i should probably stay seated
04:52
or should i lay down?
IΘ
04:53
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Lay down
SS
04:55
Sleepy Stones
ok, I'm in bed
04:55
positively giddy with anticipation
IΘ
04:56
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I already set up the rune but a restart will be required of the vessel
SS
04:56
Sleepy Stones
like, going to sleep and waking up normally, or something you're going to do
IΘ
04:57
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
And I'm setting up the rune of the scribe on the vessel and on the fae
04:57
You can read what I'm doing since I'm connected with the vessel
SS
04:57
Sleepy Stones
is the rune on the inside of my mouth?
04:57
cause i can feel something happening in there
04:58
pretty deep actually
IΘ
04:58
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
That's a side effect
04:58
It also alters accent slightly
04:59
Done
SS
04:59
Sleepy Stones
hmm
04:59
i didn't fall out of front
04:59
but, i guess you only said i might
IΘ
05:00
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Forgot to restart the vessel
05:00
Ready?
SS
05:00
Sleepy Stones
ready as I'll ever be
IΘ
05:00
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Here
05:00
SS
05:01
Sleepy Stones
did you finish?
IΘ
05:02
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Yes
SS
05:02
Sleepy Stones
ah
IΘ
05:02
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I also had to completely rewrite some parts of the vessel
SS
05:03
Sleepy Stones
still didn't lose consciousness, but i did like, stop moving and stop breathing for a moment, then did a bit of tensing up as i caught my breath again
05:03
and a few strong facial reactions
IΘ
SS
05:03
Sleepy Stones
actually still getting lil after shocks
IΘ
05:04
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
In reply to this message
Try accessing what I left behind
05:04
I left behind what I wrote
05:04
In a documentation format
SS
05:07
Sleepy Stones
In reply to this message
hmm, based on looking at it and what i feel in the body, there's a bit of an increased awareness of injuries and stuff that i can feel, like my sense of pain is working better
05:07
some stuff moved around but ultimately it's just in much higher definition
05:07
should be quite useful for combating them
05:07
very useful for a side effect
IΘ
05:08
SS
05:17
Sleepy Stones
ah, fun, i have a lot of books I've been meaning to crack into
05:17
a number of books about celtic magic and also just a number of fiction books I've been wanting to read for a long while
IΘ
05:19
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Also the seals to the scribe rune I sense are breaking quickly because yall can handle it quite well
SS
05:20
Sleepy Stones
oh fun
05:20
i guess we're good at magic
05:20
or at least resilienr
IΘ
05:21
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
But yes some of yalls personality will change as one of you read into
05:21
And with how fast it's going I sense it'll be drastic
SS
05:23
Sleepy Stones
yeah, i mean, leaving the front is a drastic change, so my personality probably will change
IΘ
05:23
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
And same with one's accent
05:23
To fully explain
05:24
SS
05:27
Sleepy Stones
hmm
05:27
I'm having a bit of trouble actually understanding
05:27
I'm getting a bit more info on repeat listens though
IΘ
05:28
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Yea
SS
05:28
Sleepy Stones
something about probably becoming more leftist, and getting more into the things I'm interested in?
05:29
i heard something relating to "counterclockwise" but I'm having trouble relating it to the rest of the sentencr
05:29
and also something about ashes
IΘ
05:30
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
The one of fae is going to be able to use the rune better but there's still adjustment on the vessels side going on
SS
05:31
Sleepy Stones
perhaps i should have a meal and try to listen to it more as i eat
IΘ
05:33
And a slight meditative state to help
SS
05:34
Sleepy Stones
perhaps un poco de cannabis
05:34
or maybe not, my eyes are dry
IΘ
05:36
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Basically there's parts of the vessel that still need resetting
SS
05:37
Sleepy Stones
yeah
05:37
oighgh i feel sick
05:37
stomach resetting possibly
05:37
or just acid reflux
IΘ
SS
06:23
Sleepy Stones
omg, I'm really out of it, all this time and i only just started actually eating now
IΘ
06:23
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
SS
07:10
Sleepy Stones
i think i understood that message you sent earlier pretty well
07:11
it was a bit rambly but i get the sense that the whole language is kinda inherently a bit rambly
07:11
like there's not a real order to things and you sometimes have to repeat stuff
IΘ
07:12
SS
07:13
Sleepy Stones
it was like, the change will come quickly in the grand scheme of things but be gradual, I'll get more leftist, I'll be a bit out of sorts for a bit, I'll get more into my interests, and I'll become more perceptive
07:13
something to that effect, not phrased exactly like that
IΘ
07:13
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Yea
07:14
Leftist in this realm is just center in most realms
SS
07:14
Sleepy Stones
I'll have to chew on that second message for a bit
07:15
not a lot of shared phonemes and stuff from the first message
07:15
so i haven't quite internalized that part of the language yet
IΘ
SS
07:25
Sleepy Stones
In reply to this message
"it can take a while to get it, take your time, don't worry about it" ?
IΘ
SS
07:28
Sleepy Stones
In reply to this message
"how are you doing [term of endearment], i wanna make sure you're OK" ?
07:28
if that is what that says, I'm doing good
07:28
had some apple earlier and I'm slowly eating some spaghetti
07:28
had an energy drink
07:28
also having cannabis
IΘ
07:29
SS
07:29
Sleepy Stones
the energy drink might have been a mistake but I'm doing basically fine
07:33
ahhh I'm trying to listen to the ones i didn't get quite right again but I'm having a bit of a jam, it's like a time thing, almost, like my brain is trying to interpret what I'm hearing before the message actually starts and so it gets all mixed up when i actually do start it
IΘ
SS
07:35
Sleepy Stones
any advice?
07:35
maybe i just need to take a break?
IΘ
07:36
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I could make it where the vessel periodically dumps from ones brain to the ones soul who fronts
SS
07:40
i don't really understand what that means
07:40
maybe I'm just tired
IΘ
SS
07:57
Sleepy Stones
In reply to this message
oh you mean like, memory, like whoever is fronting gets all the memories that happened to the body
IΘ
07:58
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Basically if it's memory gets full or processing gets full it's processing gets dumped to whoever is fronting to their soul
SS
08:06
Sleepy Stones
I'm not sure what that means
IΘ
08:07
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I can dump what I basically mean to you
SS
08:07
Sleepy Stones
sure
IΘ
08:07
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Here
SS
08:12
Sleepy Stones
I'm having trouble thinking because there's construction noise
08:12
its loud
IΘ
08:12
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
A
SS
08:13
Sleepy Stones
i don't think our body has its own independent memory?
08:13
like it's just kinda a meat thing and all that stuff is in individual headmates
08:13
although, well, it's also kinda like a cpu, on which we're all programs running
08:13
so
08:13
huh
08:14
idk i still don't really get what you mean but it might just not apply to the way my system works?
IΘ
08:14
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Here I'll send you how vessels work with souls and other such
08:15
And with yours specifically
08:15
In 2 packages
SS
08:22
Sleepy Stones
hmmmm
08:22
so it's sentient to an extent
08:23
but it's more of like, an animalistic consciousness separate from the intellect?
08:23
I'm worried now what if I'm not actually a front stuck host but the body
08:24
but i guess based on what you're saying i wouldn't have like, language or the capacity to worry about that
08:24
unless I'm getting totally the wrong message
IΘ
SS
08:28
Sleepy Stones
i guess that lines up with what i know about self care
08:29
hmm, yeah, that sounds helpful
08:31
In reply to this message
ok with fresh ears its more like "it can take a fair while, be patient, it's worth it"
08:32
In reply to this message
and this is more like "i want to check in on you, you're not in distress, are you?"
IΘ
SS
08:34
Sleepy Stones
In reply to this message
and this is like "I'm glad you're doing better, I'm a little cranky though myself"
IΘ
08:35
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Not many major ones
SS
08:36
Sleepy Stones
hmm, since I'm probably gonna nap for a bit anyways, might as well
IΘ
08:38
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
SS
08:44
Sleepy Stones
did you do it already?
08:44
if so, very minor side effects, just a bit of dry eye
08:44
if not, i have allergies, lol
08:45
did i get the content of the messages more correct this time?
IΘ
SS
IΘ
SS
09:21
Sleepy Stones
so i still didn't get them exactly right?
IΘ
09:33
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Very close
SS
09:33
Sleepy Stones
ah
09:33
well, I'm a habitual paraphraser
SS
10:22
Sleepy Stones
have you gone to sleep
IΘ
10:23
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Not really
SS
10:25
Sleepy Stones
ah I'm just
10:25
feeling kinda
10:25
needy
IΘ
10:25
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Need my assistance?
SS
10:26
Sleepy Stones
i kinda felt myself become more like, bubbly, when you applied the rune
10:26
and I'm sort of bouncing between bubbly and needy basically
10:26
but i guess this is just the being a bit out of sorts you mentioned
IΘ
10:27
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Yea
10:30
If too tired you may fall out of front ever so slightly
SS
10:30
Sleepy Stones
might be fun if that happens during therapy, lol
IΘ
10:33
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
SS
10:34
Sleepy Stones
I'm going to close my eyes and hope i can be awake at 1pm
10:34
thank you for all of this
IΘ
10:34
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
SS
10:34
Sleepy Stones
i really like youuuuu and you're cool 😎
10:35
see ya later
11 November 2022
SS
02:04
Sleepy Stones
so I'm experiencing a bit of uhhh
02:04
what might be
02:04
a side effect
02:05
of the rune
02:05
maybe
IΘ
02:05
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Elaborate?
SS
02:05
Sleepy Stones
i ehm
02:05
feel like i might be sliiiightly like
02:05
addicted?
02:05
if that makes sense
02:05
like
02:05
to you
02:06
like, your presence/attention/approval
02:06
sorry aaaa
02:06
idk
IΘ
02:06
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
That's not of the rune
SS
02:06
Sleepy Stones
i might be imagining it
02:08
is it maybe from the shot of energy you gave me before that?
IΘ
SS
02:13
Sleepy Stones
hmmm?
02:13
which channel?
02:14
and how long does this effect last?
IΘ
02:15
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I excluded you from it but it's more withdrawls
SS
02:20
Sleepy Stones
ah, so it's like
02:21
withdrawals from the spell in the horny chat?
IΘ
02:21
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Ye
SS
02:39
Sleepy Stones
it has me feeling really weird and desperate
02:46
i need like
02:46
praise >/////>
02:46
like just
02:46
aaaaa
02:46
sorry
02:46
i just
IΘ
02:47
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Good bean
SS
02:47
Sleepy Stones
eeeee
02:47
gosh
SS
03:14
Sleepy Stones
so, you're a succubus, right?
IΘ
SS
03:23
Sleepy Stones
ah
03:23
I've only encountered a succubus once before
03:24
it was really nice though
03:24
they induced sleep paralysis on me and then fed during it
IΘ
03:25
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I'm a demonic elder goddess although new to being demon
SS
03:53
Sleepy Stones
I'm not an elder anything, all of us were born in this body we think, but idk, our soul gets weirder and weirder by the moment, like, parts of it taking on all sorts of flavors, headmates becoming demons and angels and faeries and sometimes combinations of two or more of them
IΘ
03:54
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
SS
03:58
Sleepy Stones
I'm kinda curious how getting fed off over a distance would feel
04:00
idk if doing such a thing would reinforce the ehm, addiction, but idk I'm just imagining it would feel really good
04:00
i know i opted out of the automatic feeding spell, but i figure if it's done deliberately and i know it's coming i should be able to turn off any spells that would cause side effects
SS
04:17
Sleepy Stones
and, well, i do feel i owe you a bit for the rune, and i kinda wanna make up for what i would have given if i were still under the automatic feeding spell
IΘ
SS
04:46
Sleepy Stones
.webp)
IΘ
04:47
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Lovely
04:49
Good bean
SS
04:50
Sleepy Stones
aaa thank uuuu
IΘ
SS
04:51
Sleepy Stones
okii
04:51
whenever works for you
IΘ
04:54
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
SS
07:20
Sleepy Stones
i could buy a binder for you maybe?
IΘ
07:22
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Vessels trans fem and a silicone breast plate or breast pads
07:22
Will help
SS
07:23
Sleepy Stones
ohh huh
07:23
i don't know where to get those
07:23
i assumed you needed a binder bc of the meme but i guess it's just a general trans meme
IΘ
07:24
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Yea
07:24
But lack currency ;~;
SS
07:26
Sleepy Stones
hmm
07:26
i mean if you've already researched which one you want you could just drop me a link
IΘ
07:26
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Sure
07:26
They are expensive however
SS
07:27
Sleepy Stones
how much?
07:27
i miiight be able to do it
07:27
i have no income but i also have no expenses and some decent savings
IΘ
SS
07:30
Sleepy Stones
ah, yeah, i can get that
IΘ
07:32
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
SS
07:34
Sleepy Stones
which like, setting and size do you want?
IΘ
07:36
Should be set
SS
07:37
Sleepy Stones
so like, pale and size c
07:37
okiii
IΘ
07:39
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Will it be sending over currency or will i need to put information like a address ^^;
SS
07:39
Sleepy Stones
whichever one you would be more comfortable with
07:39
like if u'd rather give me paypal info or an adress
07:39
idk
IΘ
07:40
07:41
Ignore vessels deadname
07:43
SS
07:43
Sleepy Stones
.webp)
IΘ
07:46
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Lovely
SS
07:47
Sleepy Stones
ur also lovely!!!
IΘ
07:47
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Kiddo
SS
07:51
Sleepy Stones
you know uhm
07:52
when i started realizing last night that i might have a slight eh, addiction, to your presence/attention, as i was falling asleep
07:53
i also kinda started thinking i might actually, like, uhm,,,,, be fine with itttt and maybe like it
07:53
>///>
07:53
sorry
07:53
embarassing to admit
07:53
ah
IΘ
08:07
SS
08:10
Sleepy Stones
.webp)
IΘ
08:13
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Lovely
SS
08:17
Sleepy Stones
you know, with you learning hypnosis, uhm
08:17
i'm not all that experienced in being hypnotized but from the times i have been, it turns out that i take to it like
08:17
really really easily
08:18
in terms of like
08:18
going under and taking suggestions and stuff
08:20
i mean i'm actually pretty easy to manipulate in general
08:21
which has a lot of downsides
08:21
but the ease of being hypnotized is at least one very sexy upside
08:32
sorry, i'm being weird
IΘ
08:33
I can make you into a familiar if ya like
SS
08:34
Sleepy Stones
what would that entail?
IΘ
08:35
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I can directly dump it to you but it includes a species shift
08:35
Here
SS
08:37
Sleepy Stones
i'm having a bit of trouble comprehending it tbh
08:37
definitely wouldn't do it if i couldn't stay piggy though
IΘ
08:37
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
You can
08:37
Stay pig
08:37
Just different type per say
08:37
08:39
Irdishikima
SS
08:39
Sleepy Stones
oh hmm
08:39
like some sort of planar wild boar?
IΘ
SS
08:42
Sleepy Stones
In reply to this message
tbh i'm not really sure how to make heads or tails of this
IΘ
08:42
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
SS
08:42
Sleepy Stones
is it like, magically enforced servitude of some sort?
IΘ
08:43
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Nope
08:43
It is kind of like a pet however but not fully
SS
08:45
Sleepy Stones
hmm
08:45
is it something i could try on?
08:45
like, not permanent?
IΘ
08:47
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
In reply to this message
Yes but there will be a limited period before you can't go back with is 48 hours
SS
08:49
Sleepy Stones
:o that's not long
IΘ
09:15
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
09:15
It can be a while while in the state
SS
09:16
Sleepy Stones
hmm?
09:16
oh you mean like
09:16
48 hours feels like a long time
09:16
as a familiar
IΘ
09:16
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Yea in a trial state time slows
12 November 2022
IΘ
03:23
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
SS
03:24
Sleepy Stones
heyyyy
03:25
i'm very happy to see you!
IΘ
03:26
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Lovely bean
03:26
Take care of the vessel
03:27
.webp)
SS
03:35
Sleepy Stones
ahhhhm so ah
03:35
that erh
03:35
addiction, of sorts, that i mentioned
03:36
you mentioned it was a withdrawal effect from that spell
03:36
how long does that last?
03:36
because I'm actually like
03:36
feeling it stronger today
IΘ
03:36
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
03:38
Looking into it it seems like there's a rune that got attached to you that isn't by my paw
03:38
And can't be removed without causing damage
SS
03:39
Sleepy Stones
how bad is it
IΘ
03:39
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Depends on your definition
03:40
Apparently it's been dormant until now
03:42
And before the vessel of cording to my temporal abilities
SS
03:42
Sleepy Stones
ah
03:42
hmm
03:42
well that's less alarming
03:43
hmm
03:43
i suppose i have had this feeling crop up before
IΘ
03:43
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Opting you out activated it
SS
03:44
Sleepy Stones
can you tell if it's been active before in this lifetime
03:44
because if it has I'm pretty confident i know what I'm in for
IΘ
03:44
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Once and somehow a half
SS
03:44
Sleepy Stones
hmm
03:45
i was thinking it would be 3 times
IΘ
03:46
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
SS
03:48
Sleepy Stones
but yeah it feels very ehhh
03:48
compelling
03:50
like when you showed affection i literally felt warmth in my chest, like in a good way, and then when you told me to eat, it turned into like, idk, it was almost like an itch, activated until i did what you said
03:50
and then alleviated by getting up and reheating some food
03:50
i uhh
03:50
i mean
03:50
the first part is pretty explainable as normal puppy love
03:50
but the second part is
03:50
weirder and scarier
IΘ
03:51
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
You know I won't use it to hurt ya
03:51
Although anxiety may get in the way
SS
03:52
Sleepy Stones
I've felt something like this before
03:52
not as intense
03:52
but erhm
03:52
well
03:52
it was with some people who were nothing like you
03:52
because they were predators
IΘ
03:52
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
It's a reasonable thing
03:53
Also you may want to get water
SS
03:55
Sleepy Stones
and really, i think a more mundane explanation is that that was because of abusive emotional conditioning, and this is just the same neural pathways being activated again
03:55
in an unrelated situation
IΘ
03:55
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Well the vessels brain acts as a link to one's soul
03:56
With vessels of this realm
SS
03:58
Sleepy Stones
did you maybe miscount by half?
03:58
because then it could be exactly what I'm thinking
03:59
it could be through a mechanism where there's an on phase and on off phase that both have the effect
03:59
but to one who didn't see that part, would only count the on phases
IΘ
SS
04:01
Sleepy Stones
like how in challenge runs of super Mario 64 going for minimum A-presses, there's actually a distinction between when its pressed and when it's released, and so when it is pressed but doesnt need to be released, it's considered as half, and then the release is the other half
IΘ
SS
04:52
Sleepy Stones
i can't really figure out what that says
04:53
i think i'm a bit too freaked out by this whole thing right now to channel the rune very well at all
04:53
like
04:53
too much nerves
IΘ
04:55
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
04:55
Rest
04:55
Meditate and breathe
SS
04:56
Sleepy Stones
i shouldn't need to sleep, i've only been awake like 8 hours
04:56
but i probably do need to get relaxed
IΘ
04:56
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Not sleep
SS
05:00
Sleepy Stones
could you maybe translate them?
05:00
or were you just telling me to rest in them
IΘ
SS
05:01
Sleepy Stones
are there like
05:01
no words in english
05:01
for what it says
IΘ
05:01
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I am bad with this human language
SS
05:05
Sleepy Stones
hmm
05:13
could you maybe break it into simpler terms
05:13
that could be translated?
05:13
maybe i could help?
IΘ
05:13
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Of no clue
SS
05:28
Sleepy Stones
i'm going fucking crazy!!!
IΘ
05:29
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Breathe and try to slow down ones thoughts
05:29
Don't push yourself
SS
05:33
Sleepy Stones
was relaxing with yt videos and games
05:33
but the game was too hard
05:33
i have
05:33
examined my feelings a lil
IΘ
05:45
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Good
05:46
SS
05:51
Sleepy Stones
the impulse i'm feeling is partly ehhh, masochistic
05:52
ie, in addition to being addicted and obedient, it also makes me want to be hurt
05:52
but uhh
05:52
not in a fun way
05:52
you know
05:52
like, masochism can be fine and healthy
05:53
but probably not if it's the product of trauma conditioning and/or a curse
IΘ
06:03
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
06:07
Might also be true I'm picking up on a vessel control rune
06:08
Which represents how it functions
SS
06:11
Sleepy Stones
iiiii
06:11
i hate this
06:11
this is really scary
06:14
and i hate that i can't even understand what you've told me abt it bc of a communication barrier
IΘ
06:18
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
SS
06:18
Sleepy Stones
are you going to sleep?
IΘ
06:18
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
It hurts to see you scared
SS
06:18
Sleepy Stones
sorry
06:26
i'm sorry
06:26
i shouldn't have done any of this
06:26
this is my fault
06:26
i don't want to make you hurt
IΘ
06:27
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Your fine
06:27
SS
06:28
Sleepy Stones
i'm not wrong though, am i?
IΘ
06:31
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Not really much of fault
SS
06:48
Sleepy Stones
hmm
06:48
i guess
06:48
it's more like
06:48
ehhhhh
06:48
idk
06:49
maybe blanket casting something like that on everyone who enters a chat without warning them is a bad idea
06:49
like, if even under normal circumstances it can cause an addiction to your presence
06:49
and it can fuck with and reactivate other runes
06:49
it just seems like
06:50
kind of a big risk
06:59
i kind of at first had to try really hard and fight through a bit of pain to type that until i realized that you probably actually don't want anything like this to happen?
07:00
so it flipped from me being bad for questioning you to it being ok because i'm being helpful
IΘ
07:07
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I made the chat to help regulate me as I relearn things because the alternative is worse
07:09
I do give a opt out option for those who get damaged by it
SS
07:10
Sleepy Stones
but the opt out also hurts
IΘ
07:10
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
It's a sudden disconnect
SS
07:11
Sleepy Stones
but like
07:11
idk
07:11
it just seems
07:11
really unethical to do something that could seriously hurt ppl like this without asking first
07:12
especially when opting out itself can cause injury
IΘ
07:12
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I've also made sure that it isn't too severe and put failsafes in place but you are a rare case
07:13
Of such causing injury
07:14
Not having a opt out would be unethical
SS
07:14
Sleepy Stones
it seems like it should be opt in
07:14
though
IΘ
SS
07:15
Sleepy Stones
would it cause you to injure people worse if you didn't?
IΘ
07:15
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Alternative would be me imploding and loosing control of myself as I'm still learning how to regulate myself as a succubus
07:17
It's also not on everyone themselves but on the chat
SS
07:18
Sleepy Stones
In reply to this message
if you can't translate these, would you mind if i forwarded it to someone else with a rune to translate for me?
IΘ
07:18
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Yea
07:18
I don't mind
SS
07:18
Sleepy Stones
okii
IΘ
07:19
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
But yes injuries only affect those of a particular magic set and several species
SS
07:19
Sleepy Stones
i guess you wouldn't get enough if it were strictly opt in?
IΘ
07:20
And the vetting is also a contract in a way
SS
07:20
Sleepy Stones
honestly that surprises me
07:21
i mean, i could even see people paying a lot of money to be fed on by a succubus
07:21
hell, i probably would
IΘ
07:21
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I mean seems some in the chat are opting in for more
07:22
07:24
And as a elder goddess now also demonic I take a ton of energy
SS
07:27
Sleepy Stones
if opting out of the feeding caused this, would being fed on maybe alleviate it?
07:27
or would it make it worse
IΘ
07:27
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I'd need to make a reset on a rune
07:28
But yes if done with just enough energy
SS
07:28
Sleepy Stones
nice
07:29
i've been wanting to get fed on by a succubus for a while anyways ehe
07:29
good memories of when one visited me during a sleep paralysis
IΘ
07:29
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I will need vc for communication as texting would be difficult while partially outside the vessel
SS
07:30
Sleepy Stones
do you want to do this right now?
07:30
i might get interrupted
07:30
my parents wake up around this time
IΘ
07:31
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Whenever
07:36
SS
07:36
Sleepy Stones
i'm so lucky
07:36
that like
07:36
nobody takes advantage of this
07:36
because it kinda happens all the time
IΘ
07:37
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
There's a reason why transparency is my thing in this realm unless it's confidential or causes harm
07:45
.webp)
SS
07:46
Sleepy Stones
this thing which is happening to me
07:46
it's kind of like
07:46
magical slavery?
07:46
sort of?
IΘ
07:46
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I wouldn't say slavery
SS
07:46
Sleepy Stones
i mean, i know i have been conditioned emotionally and mentally to act in that way
07:46
but i didn't know there was a magical component
07:46
that's interesting
07:47
more like a toy, or pet, perhaps?
IΘ
07:47
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
F
Food Crimes 10.11.2022 12:02:06
IΘ
SS
SS
08:03
Sleepy Stones
how long might this take?
IΘ
08:04
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
On what end
SS
08:04
Sleepy Stones
well like eh
08:05
i assume i will have to lay down for this
08:05
so how long would it be before like
08:05
i could stand again
IΘ
08:05
But I'll have to partially leave the vessel
SS
08:06
Sleepy Stones
i just want to know like, how much time i will have to have set aside
IΘ
08:07
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
About 10 minutes 20 at maximum
08:08
SS
08:10
Sleepy Stones
.webp)
IΘ
08:11
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Lovely bean~
SS
08:12
Sleepy Stones
misclivk
08:12
gah
IΘ
08:12
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Good stoney bean
SS
08:12
Sleepy Stones
fucking mouse malfunctioning
08:13
keps double clicking on a single click
08:13
so when i try to click and hold on a sticker to look at it closer
08:13
it just sends it
IΘ
08:13
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Sorry
SS
08:13
Sleepy Stones
it's ok
08:14
not your fault at all
08:14
so it was in response to that ?
08:14
maybe i don't need to be as reserved as i think hehe
IΘ
08:14
SS
08:15
Sleepy Stones
heh
08:15
i was trying to not be too openly horny
08:15
but i guess it makes sense a succubus wouldnt mind
IΘ
08:15
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Be as open as you like
SS
09:43
Sleepy Stones
could you do the feeding now?
09:43
i ate something and am laying down
09:44
and i don't think i will be bothered
09:45
would it be accessible to use cannabis before/during the feeding or is that not ok
09:45
i know once i hired a dominatrix who had a policy of not accepting inebriated clients so i figured i should ask
IΘ
09:50
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Well I'm busy with other things in this realm
SS
09:50
Sleepy Stones
ok
SS
10:06
Sleepy Stones
do you know when you'll be able to?
10:16
its hard to stop thinking about being a toy
10:16
to be honest it kind of uhjj
10:18
its weird but it kinda hurts that you aren't ehm, treating me like one, i suppose, which makes sense, you didn't do this on purpose, and it might be better for me
IΘ
10:19
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
In reply to this message
I mean I could if you like I just needed verbal contractual confirmation
10:25
SS
10:25
Sleepy Stones
aaajnmmgm
10:25
maybe
10:25
i
10:25
i don't know what to think
10:30
i just
10:30
well i mean
10:31
i know this is at least in part a trauma response, the same reflex activating that was put in me for someone else's pleasure
10:31
and so from that perspective it's probably harmful to play into it
10:32
but also if it really is partially magical, and if itsx permanent
IΘ
10:32
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I basically need a binding contractual rune and you to sign such by outright saying it
SS
10:33
idk
IΘ
10:33
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
In reply to this message
Depends on certain conditions
10:33
Circumstances persay
SS
IΘ
10:36
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
If you were to be my toy/pet It's something that requires a contract as it's a commitment and where there's no going back
10:37
Although I lean more to the pet side of things
SS
10:37
Sleepy Stones
isn't the thing already on me already doing that
IΘ
10:38
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
It is but it's a general thing
10:41
But the contractual rune is a binding and also gives the necessary adaptations to work with me better
SS
10:44
Sleepy Stones
does my consent even apply right now?
IΘ
10:45
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Yes
10:45
For now
SS
10:45
Sleepy Stones
i mean even with mundane thinking, I'm having a trauma response influencing my feelings, which already calls into question my ability to give consent
10:46
but if I'm also being magically influenced by a rune on my soul that makes me your pet
10:46
then my thinking process would be un-naturally skewed in your favor
10:46
including giving you more power over me
IΘ
10:47
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I am currently attempting to make your thinking more clear
SS
10:48
Sleepy Stones
i think its working?
10:48
yeah i
10:48
i definitely don't want this
10:48
for one thing I'm in three committed relationships already
10:49
so if i were to let anyone own me on a metaphysical level it would have to be shared between them
10:50
it would be unfair if i became your toy and yours alone, making you supercede them even though i've loved them for years and barely know you
10:51
not that i might not like to be treated as a pet or toy, on some level, just not contractually and irreversibly turned to one
10:55
i really just want things to go back to normal
10:55
if there's no way to get this rune to stop activating with you as the designated owner i don't know what I'll do
IΘ
11:05
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
11:07
Fair
11:07
You know the steps I'm taking to avoid violating things
13 November 2022
SS
07:46
Sleepy Stones
Heya
07:46
how are you doing
07:46
are you busy?
IΘ
07:47
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
I'm not
SS
07:49
Sleepy Stones
ah
07:50
would you be able to do the, ehm, feeding?
IΘ
07:50
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Sure
07:50
And vc?
SS
07:50
Sleepy Stones
i will shortly when i lay down
IΘ
07:51
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Fair
SS
07:52
Sleepy Stones
is it acceptable to be using cannabis while this is going on/ as i get ready or is this a no drugs thing
IΘ
07:53
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
You can do it if you like
SS
08:21
Sleepy Stones
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)
Outgoing (1522 seconds)
IΘ
08:21
Inamruzui ΘΔ (timekeeper)//(Mizu/malzu)